newb.

i changed my blog's name. i felt like i was in junior high with the whole Livin the Life yeah yeah!!!
i'm mature now, didn't you know?
Hang out with me for 5 seconds and you will see that statement is completely false.
shoot.

but for realsies right now.
life is freaking flyyyying.
this is my time.
only having TWO semesters left in Logan, it kinda slapped me across the face that this chapter is going to be shut before i even realize it and it's gonna be one of the most bittersweet things that will ever happen in my entire life.
i have to remember to not let these important moments just peace out.
I'm going to want these memories forever, but if i don't diligently take it all in, they'll be nonexistent.

So. I'm just gonna be over here collecting my moments and having a grand ol' time!

For example:
the moment I had last night (moment of weakness more like it) and my bff let me be a baby. she let me snug with her, get my cry mascara all over her blanket and talk it out.
then the moment i had this morning that made it all better because I have someone over six thousand miles away who knows me wayyy too well. one sentence was all i needed. in that moment, everything was good. everything was better than good.
i like moments.

this will do me some good.

Tis the season

It's the most wonderful time of the year!!
This season seriously just makes me happy!
The music, the lights, the trees, the people, that pretty darn great First Presidency Christmas Devotional, eh?
I love this chance I get to remember the reason for the season. I'm grateful for that knowledge and the opportunity to celebrate!
Aaaaand a month off of school sounds pretty peachy, too. I'll take it.
Throw in a Skype sesh with a Pasha boy for kicks and giggles and we are GOLDEN.

Merry Christmas from one classy Christmas Cat sweater wearer to another.

#hipsterchristmasphoto
Because I can, yo.

rubes.

tatum ruby close is the greatest thing to happen to my fam. seriously. we are all completely smitten and obsessed and practically swoon with every little smirk, coo, and sneeze our sweet girl makes. and who's to blame us... just look at her.

Ok. the Ruby shrine is finished for the night. Notice how she doesn't look the same in any of these photos. She is constantly growing into her own person and her personality is showing more with each day! Feel free to join in on the swooning. I love my TatumTot. Can't believe it has already been almost two months!

i'm baaaack.

So, here's the thing.
i really dislike blogging.
i admitted it.
I have been a very consistent journal writer this year (snaps for chan), so I justify not blogging.

I am not going to do a whole shpeel of whats been going on in my life the last who-knows-how-long.
because, let's face it...
A) If we are friends via fb, instagram, twitter, or heaven for bid face to face, you know EXACTLY what has been going on.
or
B) Who really reads those long and annoying posts anyway. I know I never make it through other people's recaps alive, so why bother putting you through the pain?


Ask my why I decided to return to the world of careless babbling as I stare ever so zombie like at my computer screen...
I have been home alone this entire week and I've pretty much just run out of things to do...
a face lift to the bloggyboo sounded entertaining enough.
then I realized i dont know what the crap is going on and it has taken me a lifetime to just add some freaking zigzags to the background. gaaaaahh.
but isn't it cute?

i will mention one..ok 2 or 3 things though.

1. my niece is definitely way cuter and sweeter and snugglier and fluffier, and teenier than anyone elses.
2. my hottie mishy boy has ten months left in the mother land. holla! only ten more months til i get my giant fur hat!!!
3. i have never realized how bad my love for One Tree Hill is until this week. It's kind of gross when I look at my phone and think to call Lucas or Brooke up to hang out, or wish Haley was my bff so she can tutor me in Chem. Or that I have dreams about Nathan Scott being my boyfriend more often than i do of Keaton...shoot. Please don't judge me too harshly.

I'm totes just so reds for the holidayzzz.
-shout out to my she wolfs-

xoxo
chan

Life

Sometimes it can surprise you. In a way you would have NEVER expected. Maybe it's just this point in my life where I'm starting to really honestly think about where I'm going to be in 10, 20, 50 years. And I've been lucky enough to have confidence that I just might have known... Until now. It's not like its life or death, but it's just this unfamiliar feeling that I have yet to experience. I've had a plan. Ive always been the one, out of all my friends, with a plan. And I'm 100% Type A /Red personality where that plan was THE plan. And we all know that nothing goes according to plan. I'm actually excited for this unfamiliarity, and will probably have to have a constant reassurance that it will actually bring the absolute best things for me and my life.
This sounds super dramatic, now that I'm rereading it and I'd just like to make it clear that is has nothing to do with Keaton... Hahaha
Since about week 3 of college, I knew I wanted to be a Family and Consumer Science Education major and receive my secondary Ed teaching degree. And teach some type of FACS class.
I have had such confidence in myself that I would be great at it, and I truly enjoy going to school to learn how to sew, cook, raise children, decorate, and create budgets. But until I got my incredible job as a wedding host and have been immersed into this world of wedding planning, I didn't realize just how strongly I connected with it all.
And now with some really awesome (hopeful) job opportunities during this upcoming school year, it has all kind of worked itself out.
Let's just say you might not be seeing me in a high school classroom, but in a bridal store owned by yours truly.
Only time, a whole lotta faith, and some major decision making will tell.

No matter what, I know I will end up doing exactly what I need to be doing. Thats the beauty of it all.
Life is good.

Xoxo
Chan

remember me?

apparently i forgot i had a blog.
and if you have a blog of your own, you know the feeling of just being SO far behind that you just continue to put it off. And now i have three whole months FULL of blog worthy items that i just am not sure how to do it all.
bullets will probably be our best friends by the time this is through.
and thanks to instagram, i am reminded of things i did.
how lame is that?
but i gotta do what i gotta do...
and here we go.

- Birthday celebrations were great. spent it with the best family and friends i could ever have. i was spoiled and definitely milked it for all it was worth. from dinner, movie and ice cream with christy to karaoke night with my girls, and lunch with a fab friend and cutest wittle baby B, AND a delish ice cream cake to celebrate the start of my second decade of life. oh yeah and the announcement of my becoming an AUNT was pretty stellar. and when i say "pretty stellar", i mean i BAWLED and squealed for a good 15 minutes. i would say i lived that weekend to the fullest.

- i finished up my second year of college at USU. i am just growin up too darn fast. with the completion of the spring semester, i also had my last semester as a Resident Assistant. It was definitely my time to hang up the master keys, hand in my final roster verification, and say "See ya never" to on campus housing. I thoroughly enjoyed my two years on campus. they are two years that i will never ever forget and i can say that those two years involved the biggest changes and growth i have encountered thus far. i will always have a special place in my heart for bullen hall and valley view tower.

- good thing i have an even bigger place in my heart for my three floor, ten bedroom, 5 bath, beautiful home that i get to live in with my most best friends ever this next year. words cannot describe my excitement for this upcoming year. SOO much is going to happen and even though it may be a little intimidating to welcome that much amount of change within my group of friends, i wouldn't change our situation for anything. I am already antsy to get my booty back to logan. but first i gotta work previously mentioned booty off to save all the dough i possibly can.

- which brings me to my next bullet. i scored the best job. remember how obsessed with anything wedding i am? well i get to spend my days, nights, weekends, at weddings!! help plan, decorate, calm brides down, avoid scary mother of the brides at all costs, and mooch off the caterers for free food. oh yeah, and plan my whole entire future wedding, all while making a pretty penny. can i get a "HOLLA"???

-  my sweet keaton has been out 9 months. i repeat, NINE MONTHS!!! i could be giving birth to a child right now with that amount of time. (no worries on that one though, we will leave all of that to kacey.) it blows my mind that this is still all happening, let alone a year has almost come and gone. it hasn't been easy, ask my poor mother who deals with my moods. but there is never a single day that i am not crazy about my russian and this experience. check out his blog here! he never ceases to amaze me. what a guy.

that is pretty much my life.
real exciting.
"buckle up, its gonna get wild" worthy?
not really, but i truly enjoy my life.
i am blessed every day with this life.
i wouldn't change a thing or trade it for the world.

xoxo
chan

6.

happy six months, Pasha.

half a year, what?

no complaints.

whatsoever.

love you, russian boy.

btw.

long birthday post headed your way...

soonish.

all you need to know is that it was unlike any other birthday.

i bet the anticipation is killing you.

he he he.

xoxo,

chan